Letter
5
Tav-Reish-Peh-Aleph,
1921
To
my
soul
mate,
may
his
candle
burn
forever:
...
What
you
implied
in
your
last
letter,
that
I
hide
my
face
from
you
and
regard
you
as
an
enemy,
your
intention
is
as
one
who
hears
his
disgrace
but
keeps
silent,
and
that
I
am
not
sharing
the
burden
with
my
friends
or
care
at
all
about
my
friends’
pains.
I
admit
that
you
are
right
about
that;
I
do
not
feel
those
pains
that
you
feel
whatsoever.
On
the
contrary,
I
rejoice
in
those
revealed
corruptions
and
the
ones
that
are
being
revealed.
I
do,
however,
regret
and
complain
about
the
corruptions
that
have
still
not
appeared,
but
which
are
destined
to
appear,
for
a
hidden
corruption
is
hopeless,
and
its
surfacing
is
a
great
salvation
from
heaven.
The
rule
is
that
one
does
not
give
what
he
does
not
have.
Hence,
if
it
has
appeared
now,
there
is
no
doubt
that
it
was
here
to
begin
with
but
was
hidden.
This
is
why
I
am
happy
when
they
come
out
of
their
holes
because
when
you
cast
your
eye
on
them,
they
become
a
pile
of
bones.
But
I
do
not
settle
for
it
even
for
a
moment,
as
I
know
that
those
who
are
with
us
are
more
numerous
than
those
who
are
with
them.
But
weakness
stretches
time,
and
those
contemptible
ants
are
hidden
and
their
place
is
unknown.
The
sage
says
about
this,
“The
fool
folds
his
hands
and
eats
his
own
flesh.”
Moses
let
down
his
hands,
but
when
Moses
lifts
his
hands
of
faith,
all
that
should
appear
promptly
appears,
and
then
Israel
triumphs
“in
all
the
mighty
hand,
and
in
all
the
great
terror.”
This
is
the
meaning
of
“Whatever
you
find
that
your
hand
can
do
by
your
strength,
do.”
When
the
cup
is
full,
the
verse,
“The
wicked
are
overthrown,”
comes
true.
And
when
the
wicked
are
lost,
light
and
gladness
come
to
the
world,
and
then
they
are
gone.
I
remember
discussing
similarly
with
you
on
the
first
day
of
Rosh
Hashanah
[the
first
day
of
the
Jewish
year],
Tav-Reish-Peh-Aleph
[September
13,
1920],
upon
our
return
from
the
house
of
A.M.
You
shared
with
me
very
sad
things
that
you
saw
that
morning
during
the
service
[prayer].
I
was
filled
with
joy
before
you
and
you
asked
me,
“Why
this
joy?”
I
replied
to
you
the
same,
that
when
buried
wicked
appear,
although
they
have
not
been
fully
conquered,
their
very
appearance
is
regarded
as
a
great
salvation
and
causes
the
Kedusha
[holiness]
of
the
day.
And
what
you
wrote
me,
that
you
cannot
prefer
the
son
of
the
loved
one
over
the
firstborn
son
of
the
hated
one,
I
spoke
to
you
many
times
about
it
face
to
face,
that
the
place
of
faith
is
called
Bor
[pit/hole],
and
the
filling
of
faith
is
called
Be’er
[well]
of
living
waters,
or
succinctly,
“life.”
It
is
not
as
the
nature
of
ordinary
water,
that
when
some
water
is
missing,
the
well
still
stands,
meaning
that
this
well
has
the
nature
of
animals
and
nothing
more.
Rather,
all
its
parts
are
organs
on
which
the
soul
depends.
Puncturing
them
in
any
way
causes
the
entire
animate
level
to
die
and
disappear.
This
is
the
meaning
of
“They
have
forsaken
Me,
the
source
of
living
water,
to
hew
them
out
cisterns,
broken
cisterns
that
can
hold
no
water.”
Although
there
is
no
deficiency
in
the
water,
there
is
some
deficiency
in
the
well,
so
it
is
completely
broken,
certainly,
beyond
any
doubt
that
it
will
not
hold
the
water
in
it.
This
is
what
the
prophet
implies
in
the
name
of
the
Creator,
and
this
is
true
Kabbalah
for
anyone
who
is
wise
and
understands
with
his
own
mind.
If
you
do
not
understand,
go
forth
and
examine,
and
then
you,
too,
will
be
wise
and
understanding
with
your
own
mind.
What
you
wrote
me
at
the
end
of
your
letter,
that
you
would
like
me
to
sound
my
pleasant
voice
to
you,
since
for
me
it
is
no
labor
at
all
to
delight
a
bitter
soul
from
its
hardships,
for
a
heart
filled
with
love
sweetens
them
at
their
root,
the
root
of
all
pleasantness,
I
will
reply
to
you
in
brief,
that
there
is
a
time
for
everything.
You
evidently
saw
that
in
my
first
letter,
I
wrote
you
and
inscribed
a
very
nice
thing
for
its
time,
rejoicing
the
heart
of
God
and
men,
interpreting
the
true
meaning
of
“They
will
be
satiated
and
delighted
by
Your
kindness,”
examine
there
for
it
is
true,
and
its
end
will
be
pleasant
to
every
palate
longing
for
true
words.
You
see
how
I
can
exert
to
delight
you
with
words
of
truth
at
this
time.
God
forbid
that
I
should
sin
in
delighting
you
with
falsehood,
like
the
false
prophets
during
the
ruin,
for
there
is
no
falsehood
in
my
domain
at
all.
You
already
know
what
I
say
about
those
who
draw
their
disciples
to
the
truth
with
a
web
of
falsehood
and
lies,
or
with
luxuries.
I
have
never
been
defiled
by
their
idols,
and
not
in
those
is
Jacob’s
lot.
Therefore,
all
my
words
are
said
in
truth,
and
where
I
cannot
disclose
the
truth,
I
keep
completely
silent.
Do
not
think
that
if
I
were
close
to
you
I
would
be
saying
more
than
in
writing.
If
I
knew
that
this
was
so,
I
would
not
leave
you
in
the
first
place.
What
I
said
to
you
is
the
complete
truth,
that
judging
by
our
preparation,
you
do
not
need
me,
and
so
it
is.
Do
not
suspect
me
that
I
fabricated
untrustworthy
words
for
my
own
pleasure.
When
the
Creator
helps
to
be
rewarded
with
the
end
of
correction,
you
will
need
me
very
much,
and
may
the
Creator
grant
us
this
within
twelve
months,
for
the
day
is
still
long
and
you
are
not
as
quick
as
I
am.
Still,
I
hope
that
within
twelve
months
from
this
day
forth
you
will
finish
the
work,
and
then
you
will
see
with
all
your
efforts
that
we
will
be
together
for
some
years,
since
the
depth
of
the
work
begins
primarily
at
its
end.
I
have
elaborated
on
all
that
for
you
because
of
thoughts
that
I
detected
between
the
lines
of
your
letter.
You
have
forgotten
the
absolute
truth
that
is
always
in
my
heart
and
mouth.
But
let
me
promise
you
that
more
than
you
have
witnessed
the
truthfulness
of
my
words
thus
far,
you
will
evidently
see
that
all
my
words
are
forever
true
and
will
not
change
even
as
a
hairsbreadth.
Also,
all
the
words
I
wrote
you
carry
a
true
meaning
that
will
not
undergo
change
but
require
attention
for
the
time
is
a
time
for
brevity.
Believe
that
I
could
not
write
to
you
until
now
the
words
that
are
revealed
in
this
letter,
for
reasons
that
I
keep
to
myself.
My
gaze
is
fixed
on
the
goal,
to
make
it
succeed
the
most,
and
this
is
what
surrounds
me
with
a
fence
of
careful
guarding
over
every
single
word.
I
know
that
in
time,
all
my
words
and
conducts
toward
you
will
become
clear,
as
it
is
written,
“Happy
are
you,
vessels,
who
entered
in
impurity
and
came
out
in
purity,”
for
this
is
the
path
of
Torah.
I
have
grown
tired
of
asking
you
to
write
me
more,
and
to
promise
you
that
in
return,
I
will
write
you
often.
Each
day
I
sit
and
wait,
perhaps
a
word
about
you—from
your
spiritual
life
or
from
your
corporeal
life—will
come
my
way.
But
there
is
not
a
sound.
What
can
you
say
to
justify
it?
There
are
no
answers
here
with
strong
words
or
with
faint
words,
only
answers
with
dry
words
uttered
in
a
florid
style,
as
though
for
being
overburdened,
but
you
probably
do
not
even
understand
yourself.
...
And
yet,
I
know
that
times
will
be
better,
and
then,
to
the
extent
that
they
improve,
their
open
love
will
grow,
as
well.
We
have
yet
to
be
satiated
with
eternal
love
together,
as
a
never-ending
fountain,
satiated
and
delighted
together,
for
the
pleasantness
of
the
Lord
is
for
the
complete
receiver
who
feels
no
satiation.
This
is
why
He
is
called
“Almighty,”
since
for
those
who
do
His
will
appears
an
old
light
and
a
new
light
in
one
unification.
This
is
acquired
by
keeping
Sabbaths
and
remissions
for
the
world
of
Yovel
[fifty-year
anniversary,
as
well
as
jubilee].
This
is
the
meaning
of
“They
left
it
until
morning
…
and
it
did
not
rot,
nor
was
there
any
worm
in
it.”
It
is
written,
“They
will
be
satiated
and
delighted
by
Your
kindness,”
as
corporeal
eating
fills
the
belly
by
the
corporeal
measure.
Moreover,
it
sends
up
smoke
to
the
brain
due
to
the
cooking
in
the
stomach,
and
one
grows
tired
and
weary,
and
falls
asleep.
This
is
the
meaning
of
Pinhas
stabbing
the
spear
into
her
belly
while
they
were
attached.
“Then
Pinhas
stood
and
prayed,
and
the
plague
stopped.”
This
is
why
he
was
rewarded
with
the
anointing
oil
although
he
was
not
from
the
descendants
of
Aaron,
for
Moses
himself
told
him,
“Behold,
I
give
to
him
My
covenant
of
peace.”
First
it
was
with
a
cut
Vav,
but
through
the
light
of
Torah,
it
grew
long,
and
“My
covenant
was
with
him,
life
and
peace”
together,
and
“By
the
light
of
the
king’s
face
is
life.”
Yehuda
Leib